Hey boy,

I really wanna be with you.

SO.. I'm sixteen! :) Like.. zz. finally! But on my birthday, i didn't feel anything special ._. However, I did have a memorable sweet sixteen! Will blog about it, when I have transferred all my pictures :D

Why are you still in delusion, dear? He clearly have left you for someone else. Why are you putting yourself down for something/someone which/whom might not even come back anymore? It hurts me to see you devastated. As much as I really want to shout at you to fucking get over him, I can't. Cause I get how you feel. I so do. All you ever need, is time. As time passes by, you'll heal, and learn from it. It's obviously his loss, but it could be your fault too. I just hope you'll learn from your mistakes, and promise me that you'll change. It worries me to see you like this. I'm praying for you, hoping that you'll get over him/it.

You,

Opened my mind to things I've never seen. 

I'm currently blogging on my iPod. Why? I have no idea HAHA I just woke up and I checked my facebook. Apparently, JIMMY still reads my blog :p HAIIIIII JIMMM!! *waves* (I know you'll be reading this soon.) 

And I was reading back my previous posts. Wow, this whole year I did change alot. as in ALOT. not just physically but mentally too. I guess I've grown a little more matured, though I'm still quite childish. I'm not that naive as I used to be. I found my courage and guts to do what I love to do. Most importantly, I managed to get over the guy who i was talking about last year and found myself a new guy? HAHAHA well hopefully I wouldn't be flooding this blog with any other emo posts about any guys.. hmm, not now I guess. 

Four days of holidays have been great. First 2 days spent it mostly with shaza&mayyin :) went to pyramid on thurs along with Claire. We watched YouAgain! Ah that was just hilarious. :DD and the next day, went over to shaza's crib for BBQ NIGHT!!! I had lots of fun, really! 

Ok, I don't even know why I'm blogging for. I don't even know why I'm even awake HAHAHA so odd of me ._. well maybe I should watch my tvb dramas :D 

Sent from my iPod

Baby, you're a firework

Show 'em what you worth.

Finals are over. Yes, may i repeat, FINALS ARE OVER. Can you believe it? Time passes so heck fast, that i've just successfully gone through Form 4, just like that. Well, since I do not blog anymore about my daily life, so I should totally talk about all the things i've learnt or changed. First of all, I had a haircut around 2 months back? And it made me look like a six years old. Yeap. Bangs, and short hair. It was a decision which I thought I would never make, since I used to have that hairstyle when I was six. But I was persuaded by MichaelPoh, and I totally decided to screw it and just go for it. So i went for it, and I hate my hair now. I can't wait till it's longer, I swear. I need my hair to be long for PROM. I guess I can never make it now. My hair is freaking retarded now, k thanks.

For this whole 11 months, I've met new great friends, and lost a few buddies who used to be close to me. I've fallen in and out of love, and finally i've overcame what I've been afraid of for a year. I've gotten my courage and guts to do what I love to do. I've learnt more about the real world, and tried my best to work for my dreams. I've also gotten closer to my classmates. Yeah, that's pretty much about it.

I read back my previous posts, and it made me think back of Concert Night. Yeah, how much i miss SRIKL concert night, and those practices we had. "Voices" had made me strong. They were the ones who made me believe in myself. We created a bond within us, all thanks to Ms.Charlene. And now, we lost it. It's quite a bummer. But well, nothing much we can do. At least what we had was lovely, and we are able to call it our memories :)

Okay. I'm done, for now.

Bitter in you..

Oh god, i just realized i've ditched my blog, completely. IT'S NOW.. DEAD. but, i'm here to make it alive again i guess. So i've read my previous post, which was about my DEAD ITOUCH T_T yes, indeed, tragic.

BUT GUESS WHAT!

my adorable, super amazing, lovely, handsome yet loving brother, BOUGHT ME A NEW ITOUCH :) like seriously. He went to Singapore like a week after the holidays. And when he was still in Singapore, he called me one day, and asked me, to check out the current price of the iTouch, in Malaysia. So, i did, and both of us found out that the price in Singapore, is actually way cheaper! Hence, he bought me a new iTouch! :D 3rd generation, and 32gb! GOSH. so much better than my died iTouch. Well, it's not that i have forgotten about it, but seriously, it died.. and my dad tried to send it to be fixed, but the price for it to be fixed, it's more expensive than buying a new iTouch. So yeah! :D

Hm, my life this year, has been going on great! :) Despite all the dramas, I had so much fun! SRIKL 2010 concert night, just ended like a week ago! Ohmygod. I miss concert rehearsals so much! I miss all the members of "Voices"! I miss all the times when we would just laugh and laugh like nobody's business, those times we'll sing any song we love, and those times we just play TAP TAP! WOOOO. Gosh, those times spent with "Voices", has been the best, and i'll never ever forget it in my whole life. And, Ms.Charlene, who has spent so much effort on us! Sadly, she's going to leave for UK to do her masters. sigh. I lovelovelove all of them !

Class has been going on great lately too! Classmates are so awesomeeee! I love the guys, ohmygod. Shaza, Clarence, Edward, Tak-Joon, Bee, KienSern, KenShen, Alvin, Sean + the list goes on, have been there for me like, always. And they never failed to cheer me up :) After performing for the concert, they actually praised me! Felt so touched ;'). and Tak-Joon actually called me right after concert ended, and told me I've put on a great show! Gosh. so awesomeeee! And everyday in class, I've been laughing like mad and as if i was crazy. Pure madness.

Well, I'm loving my life, although I've been quite upset recently. But, screw it. I'm gonna live my life, the way i want it to be. :D

Tragedy.

I'm back from Pangkor! Though the trip was fun, but something really sad happened.

Dramatic post, ahead. So beware.

NOTICE THE NEXT LINE.

MY ITOUCH, DIED. AS IN, NOT DIED CAUSE OF NO BATTERY, BUT DIED, AS IN CAN'T WORK ANYMORE.

Yes, that explains all. It happened like yesterday. I was pretty much PMS-ing already, and when i found out that my iTouch died, i became worse. I couldn't stop whining, practically I was whining like a bitch. Annoyed my sister like a total kesha.

I was really really REALLY REALLY REALLY sad when I tried to switch on my iTouch, but it didn't. I felt really really bad, and sorry at the same time.

I know I did not buy the iTouch. I know it don't belong to me. No, if you're thinking that I stole it, I did not. I got it from someone. But once i got it, I tried my best to protect it with much care and love.

Sigh, the feeling of losing it, is like losing a baby, which i've put so much effort to make it grow perfectly. Although it doesn't have to grow, but yea you get me. My pictures, videos, and songs are gone! G-O-N-E. I bet you're going to say "Oh please yokeshan, your songs are from your itunes! ", WELL YOU'RE WRONG. I have LOTSA songs all from the previous itunes i used to have. Cause my brother took his computer to reformat, and i lost all the songs. But thank god, my itouch still has it! Now that it's died, i lost ALL.

And the videos i took days to download! ALL MY SNSD; SUPERJUNIOR; JAYCHOU;BOYSLIKEGIRLS VIDEOS ARE GONE. OMG T__________________T and and, MY GAMES. FUCK. MY GAMES. I HAVE THOUSANDS APPS ON THE ITOUCH. I TOOK SO MUCH EFFORT TO DOWNLOAD, ANDNMAKE IT SYNCHRONIZE. NOW IT'S GONE. IT'S LIKE DUMPING MY WHOLE EFFORT TO THE SEA T_T

SIGHH. My itouch is currently undergoing a survival therapy, by being buried in a bucket filled with rice! HOPEFULLY IT SURVIVES.

Sony Music Malaysia Facebook Page :)?

I'm a fan of music, are you? I'm a huge fan of BoysLikeGirls, RIGHT. I listen to songs everyday, and same goes to you. It doesn't even matter where you are, you'll be listening to songs. You can be listening to songs sung by Beyonce, Britney Spears, Chris Daughtry, Michael Jackson, or even our local artist, Jaclyn Victor. It can be songs sung by any artist in this world.

As some of you might already know, at the beginning of this year, I had been given an extra opportunity to meet Boys Like Girls again, thanks to Sony Music Malaysia. I felt really lucky, and I still do not know how to thank them, and of course Kel Li :)


photo courtesy of Sony Music Malaysia :)


Anyway, now, in return, I'm here to blog about Sony Music Malaysia! :DD Who has not heard of Sony Music? Come on, it's international. Sony Music Malaysia has been giving alot of freebies and merchandices through twitter, and now that they have a facebook fan page, YOU CAN JUST HOP ON TO THEIR FAN PAGE, AND WIN MORE FREEBIES :DD But of course, in order to win, You'll have to join some exciting games and quizes.

Sony Music Malaysia Facebook page, gives weekly prizes like CDs, movie tickets, showcase passes, and even Meet&Greet passes!! Óh, not forgetting merchandices too! and now, they're giving you a chance to win 2CDs free, of your own choice, with just a simply, tiny-weeny request :)

The request, is by far easy.First of all, you have to be a fan of SonyMusic MY FB page. Then, You, have to blog about Sony Music Malaysia Facebook Page. Once you're done, holla to Click!. Just when you're in that blog post, leave your blog link and a valid email, as a comment, so that SonyMusicMalaysia will be able to contact you!

Now that I've done my part, to win em CDs, IS YOUR TURN NOW! GO GO GO, :D

LIKE SONYMUSICMALAYSIAFANPAGE : www.facebook.com/sonymusicmy

It hurts.

I'm blogging right now, because i've noone to talk to. Crying to myself, wouldn't help. I know i need to let it out, so, i guess my blog's my current best friend.

I'm so disappointed in you. It's like, I don't even know you anymore. You used to be the only one for me, through my deepest and darkest times. You'd be there for me, I remember. But now, it seems like you don't need me anymore. I feel so useless, as one for you. I feel as though I wasn't there for you, when you were sad, and now, someone is replacing me. Eventhough how much I want to be there for you, to hear you out, now i know that he does it better than I do. Whatever it is, I'll always love you, more than he does, more than anyone does, forever and always. You've hurt me so deep, that I don't even know how to face you anymore. But, i will always love you, be there for you whenever you need me, and care about you.