Goodbye.

Hello all.

I've officially moved to...

www.leeyokeshan.blogspot.com

:)

This blog remains, only for anyone who wants to stalk my past..

that's if you can find any interesting.
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for new story of my life!
see ya there!

with love,

x.

Can't hold it in.

Relationship, friendship, family? Or nothing.

I supposed this is a sensitive issue. It might/might not offend you in any way, but if you're easily offended, then i reckon you to stop reading from this point.

I never did find this an issue,really. But just lately, it slowly annoys me. And I can't hold it in, and can't help but to blog about it, since it's quite an interesting topic to talk about. Would you choose relationship,friendship or your family? Of course, family beat others flat. Definitely i'll choose my family over anything regardless how much i'll get mad at my family members.

So now it's left with Relationship or Friendship? Hah, the ultimate question. For me, honestly i'll choose my friends. Really, you can ask my best friends e.g: claire. My close friends should know i prioritize them, more than i prioritize my boyfriend. But of course, don't ask me this --> "If your best friend and your boyfriend are sinking in the ocean, who would you save first?" Really? I'll choose none, I don't even know how to swim, probably I'd die even before i get to them.

What annoys me the most is when someone asks me to spend more time with them, instead of my boyfriend... and if my boyfriend's friend scold my boyfriend just cause he's spending too much time with me. Sorry, argument is invalid. If you proceed with that, you're just being ridiculous. First of all, in my situation, I don't even see my boyfriend that often, esp. now, since is SPM period. I can't promise if I'd after my SPM, but for the past 6 months, I never did see my boyfriend more than 5 days a week. The most i've ever seen him in a week, is just 3 times a week. Less than half the time I have in a week. And the only reason I see him is because he fetches me to church and back home, and maybe if we go watch a movie or something. I find it really funny if my friends tell me that i've been spending too much time with my boyfriend. *excuse me? For the past 3 weeks I have not seen him more than 10 minutes. Usually he'll only drop by my house once a week and check how i'm doing. Even on my birthday, he only came and gave me my present and that's it. Last friday was an exception. I needed him to fetch me to church since I had something to do, and we had supper after that. The most we spent together was only 3 hours.

So, argument is invalid.

For my boyfriend who has been spending too much time with me? *excuse me again. He only spends the most 3 days a week with me, and even if I do see him, is only during the weekends for church. Well, you want to talk/see my boyfriend right, I welcome you to church, and spend some time with him too. I'm not being protective/possessive over him, really. You have the other 4/5 days to see him too, and what not. Moreover I've not been spending any time with my boyfriend for the past 3 weeks. So if you think my boyfriend and I have been spending oh-so-much time that he ditched any of you in anyway, think again. He wasn't even here to spend with me on my birthday. Sure, some may say "Oh i don't allow my boyfriend out." That's not true. Maybe I do say no, but that's only if he uses the trick. If he tells me "oh baby, help me make the decision, I'll listen to you." I will not allow him, and he will tell his friends off. That's only to see if he'd do it for me. But less than 10 minutes, i'll be like "go la. I was just kidding. Just call me after you done." Please. I'm not a mean/evil girlfriend. If my boyfriend really wants to go out, he won't even bother to listen to me, and he will still leave the house nevertheless. Been there, done that. Even if I'm mad, he will still go out first, then only come back to me, honestly.

Once again, argument is invalid.

I do not believe that someone will pay more attention to their girlfriend/boyfriend after being in a relationship. Some people claims that they might change into a different person after getting a girlfriend/boyfriend. SORRY, ARGUMENTISINVALID. Definitely we'll spend more of our time on them, of course. I talk to my boyfriend 24/7 unless any of us are sleeping. But what makes you think I don't bother talking to you? Do you text/call me in the morning till the night? No. My boyfriend does. So definitely he'll gradually be a bigger part in my life. Do you care about what I've done the whole day and what not? Do you check on me? No. My boyfriend does. And of course, he's my boyfriend, I have to tell him everything no? And wouldn't you do the same? If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, would you not be talking/calling them? If you have the guts to tell me, "yeah i don't bother/give a shit about my girlfriend/boyfriend." Then fine. Is either, your relationship is fake, or.. maybe... I don't know.

I hate it when someone tells me "stop spending so much time on your boyfriend la." or "got boyfriend like that now la. no time for us la." -_- really? Then you want to come out with us or not? Oh don't want, say you're being a lamppost. Well I offered you, just you didn't want. And don't let me see you talking to your boyfriend/girlfriend 24/7 when you get one okay? I'll do the same.

Argument is only valid, when you've been talking to me 24/7 as my best friend, and I suddenly ditch you for my boyfriend.

Period.

No words,

can.. speak.

So so so so! SPM is overrrrr! HAH, how i wish, well not till December 5th, that is :)

I have 4 days of rest/study days to score for Accounts on Monday, but.. i totally lost my mood to study. I feel as if SPM has over, or even better, I never did sit for SPM. This past week of SPM was.. headache. I had 4 days of rest earlier too, to study for Chemistry & Biology this week, but guess what? Being the usual me, or any other SPM student, I didn't grab the chance, and I just let time passed by. I was basically just sleeping for 2 days straight, with the excuse of my birthday.. Not like my birthday was a special day, but yes, trying to make myself feel better, I told myself this. "Chillax yokeshan. It's your birthday, you deserve to rest.." Yeap, that went on for 2 days straight.. till. SUNDAY! When I realized I had no time to actually finish studying for Chemistry & Biology.. I was so stressed. And, Chemistry paper.. was so tough. I was kinda depressed after sitting for it.. I cried.

But oh well, no point crying over spilt milk :)

I'm just very glad that I'm done with science subjects. Not in a million years I'll ever touch Science again. Not even General Science. *let's hope that I don't have to study Science in A-Levels.

I understand how boring my blog is, but.. I'm so keen on starting to blog often now! Starting from December 5th. I just want to keep track of what I'm doing everyday when I start college/turn 18.

OH OH.

I'm finally seventeen. NGEHEH. who's the boss now >:)

My birthday, was not much of a big deal. I couldn't celebrate my birthday anyway, all cause of SPM.. yeah, mummy made the rule.. sort of.

BUT thanks to my bigbear. He surprised me with the gift I've ever wanted.

A silver plectrum pendant!

I've always wanted a guitar pick necklace, for all it matters. Yes I told him 3 things I've ever wanted, but who knew he'd give me this? I thought there's no way he will ever give this to me. If yes, I would have bought one for myself way long ago, no? It's the fact that we can hardly see this around in Malaysia unless you punch a hole in the plastic guitar pick (ya the one you use it to strum the guitar) and buy yourself a chain. Well, he got this, all the way from UK! This precious pendant of mine sat on the plane before! Don't play play hehe. And yes, it's engraved :) Happy enough to make me a happy girl! Don't know what I'd do without you, bigbear!

Then, my family totally forgotten it was my birthday till like 6pm. They decided to text me to wish me. HOW SINCERE, right? I know. And we made our way up to Gohtong Jaya for dinner. It was a lovely dinner, I had fun, regardless where we ate. It was the accompany I had. I always loved going out with my family.

Now, time for me to watch some desperate housewives! Time to slack, and skype with my bigbearlove!

plectrum to my heart.

yeah, that's me camwhoring with my precious necklace!

p.s:// i''m going away! :)

till then,

x.