And I remember.

I wish I can take it back to a week ago. Don't I deserve any second chance? Why did you have to take it away from me this fast? Please. God, i'm begging you. I just want it back, so much. Why? I really really want to tell you everything I feel. I just want to tell you, how much I can't live without you. How much I want you back. How much I still love you. How much.. i'd do anything just to get you back. I may sound desperate. But that's the truth. I tried getting used to it. I tried accepting the fact. But I just can't.

I hope for God to make a change. and to make us, right again, someday.

I want you so badly. I'll just leave in denial. That maybe, someday we'll be back together. Yes, that's what i'll pray and hope for every single day. I can't let you go.. I love you too much to. I just hope you'd know how i feel. And how perfect together we'd be. There are some things that will never change. Right now, our picture is still my wallpaper, and my passcode is still 0211. Yes. that's how much I still can't let you go.

And I remember.

I wish I can take it back to a week ago. Don't I deserve any second chance? Why did you have to take it away from me this fast? Please. God, i'm begging you. I just want it back, so much. Why? I really really want to tell you everything I feel. I just want to tell you, how much I can't live without you. How much I want you back. How much I still love you. How much.. i'd do anything just to get you back. I may sound desperate. But that's the truth. I tried getting used to it. I tried accepting the fact. But I just can't.

I hope for God to make a change. and to make us, right again, someday.

I've got control now.

Just when I thought we wouldn't end like that, I thought wrong. AHAHHA it was like the same thing happening all over again.. Like how my previous one used to be. I mean, why? Why does it seem so easy for you to let go? It hurts me so much, that everytime I close my eyes, I'll cry in my sleep. And I just feel so afraid. It hurts me so bad. But everyday I just try to live.. I try a little hard.. but i just die a little more inside.

Thanks. I don't know what to say to you anymore.

Perfect to me.

This is my first post.. of year 2011. After one month. LOL I fail.

Anyway, Form 5 has been great! Despite all the stress and tuitions I've to keep up with, I'm quite fine. Tuition from Mon-Thurs. Cheer training on Fri. Youth&Church on weekends. I'm busy/out almost everyday. Bah. I need to manage my time well so I can find time to study T_T I'm always tired and exhausted. Oh well.

December '10 was a great month! Getting to spend time with the boyfriend for 6 days in a row! Church camp and Prom. How awesome could that be! And I still have yet to blog about it. Youth camp was practically the best, cause that was a very life changing 4 days. Thanks to New Life for every single thing. All the campers, pastors and Jinny :')

I'm bored. Bai.

Thanks to You, Lord.

Lord,

Thanks to You, Lord.

Thanks to You, Lord.

We're touched by You.

When we fall,

we all close our eyes,

and we'll pray,

to our almighty God.

And we'll know,

when it's all our time,

just cause God's here,

in our very own hearts and souls.

With God,

everything is possible,

With God,

we're all touched by Him.

Lord,

thanks to You, Lord,

thanks to You,Lord,

we're all touched by Your bare hands.

Lord,

Thanks to You, Lord,

You are good, Lord,

we all worship You for who You are.

Well, just a song I wrote, and I'm posting this, just incase I forget :)

Thank You, Lord.

Merry x'mas! :)

Hello everyone, regardless of whoever you are who's reading this right now. Just wanna give a big shoutout to everybody, wish you guys a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Dear Santa,

I don't really know if i've been good this year, but I'm pretty sure I can't be any worse right? So I hope you'll grant me a few wishes on my christmas list :)

Love,
yokeshan.

If i die young,

bury me in satin.

Okay, so, It's Time Youth Camp 2010 and SriKL Prom Night, have ended. What now? My boy has flew to U.S.A, spending his x'mas there. And I've nothing planned. Well, though I've alot of events to go to, but, same old problem. Transport. Sigh. That's why I wish that I can drive now.

But oh well. Youth camp and Prom has been really really really good! Awesome actually :) I'm really really glad that I got to spend time with the boyfriend for like 6 days, :') It's just so nice to have him around me all the time, and getting to spend some solitary moments with him before he leaves for U.S and college. Thank God for that!

So, I'm going to blog about the Camp and Prom some other time AHAHAH, wait till I have pictures, or what not.. Um, I'm pretty sure I won't be blogging :p too lazy actually, but we shall see no?

Thanks for being so understanding,

and tolerating me for everything I've done wrong.

sorry that i've done alot of stuffs which may have upset you,

or even close to breaking your heart and hurting you.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I may not be the most perfect girl in this world,

but thank you for loving me for who I am.

Thanks for treating me like a princess and pampering me.

Thanks for being there for me, and with me,

whenever I need a shoulder to cry on.

Eventhough we've only met for 5 months,

and being together for only a month and half,

but it feels like I've known you for life.

During this past 6 days have been the best time,

cause I have you around with me.

I'm sorry that sometimes I sulk over things which may not be true,

and throwing my temper at you.

Only you can stand me and tolerate with all my childish attitudes.

Only you can make me smile and laugh again whenever I'm down.

I don't mind whenever you hurt me, or upset me,

cause I believe that things will work out eventually,

and I will do anything for you baby. I will.

I love you.