Butterfly , fly away ,

I'm like so down right now . pfft . i'll prolly update bout my movie marathon nxt week or something . will be heading to ipoh tmrw , will be back on tuesday .

listening to Butterfly , fly away - MileyCyrus & BillyRayCyrus . it's just a sad song :)

suppose to go out with mum for this dinner thing at a temple , but ... naaah , not in a mood for that . but i just feel terrible guilty . aaaahh .

why is everything crushing down on me ?

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just finished watching " he's just not that into you . " . and after watching that , i told myself not to be emo , and that show really gave me a good lesson :)

i was dumb enough to think that you're different from the others . and it's true , i have never had this feelings on any other guys for a long time . I was just pure stupid , thinking that you like me or some crap . Yeah , i'm prolly that dumb for falling for a guy like you . I don't care if you talk to me now or not . i won't be crying over you anymore i guess , cause you don't even worth any tears of mine . If you want me , you'll come and get me .

Every morning , waking up from my sleep , i'll check my phone , and thinking that you'll POSSIBLY message me in the morning , but .. when i see that's not happening , whatever . From this day onwards , im not going to think about you anymore . I'm never going to complain to my girls bout you not talking to me anymore , although I still have a winzy feelings for you , but whatever man . You screwed it . Bah :)

Sheila ; May Yin ; Shaza ; Carissa ; Claire . I don't like him anymore :D :D okay maybe a lil , but yeaahh ! :) btw carissa & shaza , forget bout pillow :)

if a guy wants a girl , he'll make it happen no matter what ;

Taking back my love ;

imma sleep in no time :)
going for movie marathon at ou ,
with dear mayyin :D
4 movies in one day !
i'm pretty hyped up now ,
can't wait .
teeheeehehehe :D

i'm lost and confused right now ,
i've never had this feelings in a year ,
and you're the one who gave me those now ,
but , i'm thinking ,
if i should stay on with you , or just get over you .
please ,
tell me something .
give me a hint , make a move ,
anything to tell you that you love me .
or else ,
i guess i've no any other hope , to keep this feelings,
either than just let it go ,
but i don't want to ,
i really like you .
i really do ;

You're not sorry .

Today was just boring .

Woke up around 2 something , cause yst i was really dead tired and couldn't really sleep . Bath once I woke up , just had the urge to be really clean out of a sudden . Then , had brunch . And helped mum with some chores without been asked :) was really proud of myself . Watched tivo & BrideWars . Got my tears out , cause i was thinking if that will happen in 10 years time , my best friend & i . I guess you'll get to find that someone who will stand by you no matter what .

I have been taking quizes from Facebook minutes ago . yeah nuisance . i know , but i'm pretty bored right now .

anyways , to Shaza Hazwani :

yyoo babbee !
have fun kat Johor okaaay ?
saya akan miss you ,
rindu you ,
cinta you banyak banyak :)
take care aaiiite !
and tell your boyfie ,
i say heeello :D

to Claire Cosset :

babe ,
have fun at your church camp & Bangkok aite ?!
you better be !
whole week not getting to see you anymore till school starts .
take caareeee !
and tell me all about it after u're back :)
i love love you so mucch !
going to miss you like hell :]

to Carissa Yuen :

seexaaaayy ,
have fun at your Tanjung Jara aite !
finally that day has come right ?
HAHAHA .
i'll miss talking to you so muchh !
there's nobody to talk with bout pillow already ):
shaza & you are going to be away ! baahh
i'll update you bout pillow after u're back ,
prolly i'll be over him when you're back ,
and surprise you with a new crush :P
take care ,
love loveee youu !

MayYin & ShaoWei will be back from Vietnam today . Mostly all my friends will be out . I'll be heading back to Ipoh on Monday , for my dad's friend's son marriage :) and stay overnight for a day . useless , i know . Wanted to sleepover at Claire's during that day , but Claire will be off to Bangkok . Sucks ):

You can tell me that you're sorry ,
but I don't believe you like i did before ;

Day at Claire's .

woke up around 10 something today . watched some tivo ; had breakfast ; then went to bath . played some guitar & piano ; talked to mum bout my life and everything .

around 1.30 , left for Claire's . Reached around 1.45 . Natalie was already there :) she tried to scare me by hiding behind the curtain , but plan failed :P mwahahha . Natalie showed us this facebook photos about this guy , posing NUDE MODELING PHOTOS . we laughed like heck :P and then around 2 something , Phil ; BrandonChew ; Ian & Joshua reached :) we showed them the pictures , but they weren't fascinated cause of it ! baah , party poopers .

We wanted to watch FiredUp , but then the tivo had some problems , or was it the dvd itself ? We couldn't hear the people talking , so it was like watching Mr.Bean ! -.-' so we changed to FarCry . It wasn't a good movie though . Too draggy , so we fast forward and all . Derrick & Jing Her came between the movie .

Then went up to claire's room to watch FiredUp since it only work at her room . :) BrandonChew went off a lil while later . Then we were watching , suddenly , her fiuses had some sparkles coming out . so we panic-ed shit . naah , all of us , just us girls :D the guys were extremely cool . Derrick&Ian were the maaaan ! We couldn't watch any more shows , and all we did was stone . Then suddenly , something hilarious came up , and it's something , WHICH YOU CAN'T FIND IT EVERYDAAAYY :D what a memorable incident :) shall not be mention here .

We went down , to leave it alone . And , we stone . then Stanley came . We stoned for like 15 minutes , and finally came up with something to do . We played the I'veNever game :) and it's really fun . Instead of alcohols , we had dares . JingHer&Ian were PUSSIES ): they didn't do their dare .

Around 6.25 , JingHer ; Ian ; Phil ; Derrick followed my car , and bro dropped them off at AC . headed home , did my piano hw . Went for PianoClass after that .

That was practically my day :)
A fun ; productive ; memorable ; a great day with the guys & babes :D

all i want to say right now is ,
i love you .
I don't care if you do or not .
but this is how i feels ;

Outing at pyramid :)

okay , this post is for real ;)

Woke up at 10am , cause my sis woke me up and asked me what time I was going to pyramid and asked me if i could go there early since she was fetching . Called Shaza&Carissa up , to ask them come early . Bath , got dressed up , watched tivo , ate breakfast .

Around 11.30 , left the house , and headed to pyramid . Met with Shaza&Carissa . Then went to get credit for myself . And went to toilet , then to MCD . ate , then the guys came . Alastair , Redza & Hariz . Was pretty bored there , so Carissa and I went to walk around for a little :) then after MCD , went for Dreamworld , a.k.a , lala-land , as the guys call it . Took pic with shaza's cam , and the guys were playing AirHockey , it was funny .

Headed for movie after that . Terminator Salvation was ze' bomb . Carissa and I were so kan-chiong , and we were like so sad , cause we heard that JohnConnor is going to die . Damn you Hariz . I cried at the kan-chiong part . Where JohnConnor almost died , but MarcusWright saved him :) ChristianBale & SamWorthington , is damn hot in that movie . *AHH , can drool :) *

Then , we wanted to go to the toilet , but it was really packed . Then we went over to Popular as I needed to get correctiontape for bro . We checked out Galaxiemag , and we left Carissa at the mag section since she wanted to read more . So Shaza teman-ed me to get correctiontape , and I got some workbooks for me to do next week :) I bet if my mum knew that I bought some workbooks , she'll proud of me . Going outing , still can think of studying :P

Then , we went for some MovieFestivalContest , cause we saw Razif & Redza there . They were trying to win 2 tickets , AND THEY DID :D they danced and everything . Shaza was being a sweetheart , she striked a pose , and she got me HANNAHMONTANA:MOVIEPOSTER :) i love love her :) shaza & MileyCyrus . heh , then Shaza & I played the " Propose ; Marriage ; Divorce " game . It was a crapless game , but it was fun . Shaza & I got second , we could have won 2 tickets ): but tak pe lah , I HAVE TERMINATOR SALVATION poster ! Can stare at ChristianBale now :) :) Carissa was being such a coward , DIDN'T WANT TO PLAY WITH ME ); bahhh :\

We left cause it ended . Bumped into Chein Wee , and he hung around with us :) then went to Shins just to get a showercap for Carissa's mum . Alastair left then . Went over to SakaeSushi since the guys were hungry . I asked the waiter if it was halal , cause I couldn't find any halal sign oakaaay ! and shazadear wanted to eat :)

me : erhh ... are you halal ?
waiter : I can't be halal , but the food here is halal .
* i was tinking what that mean , cause i didnt realise that i asked if he was halal . so yeaahh . I told everyone of them cause i got it after that . HAHAHHA *

Shaza left right after her Pepsi came and she was waiting for damn long . AHAH , Hariz left before her . it was only left , Chein Wee ; Carissa ; Redza and me . We ate ; talked and everything :) then Chein Wee went to meet up with his dad . Carissa with her mum . Redza and i . then we bumped into Nina ; Dylan ; Megat ; Leon & his friends :) Redza left , and joined Nina for a while . then she had to leave . Met up with Carissa&her mum cause i was alone ): It was nice talking to her mum :) SHE THOUGHT I WAS STANDARD 6 T_T

i'm so lazy to post up pics .
Shaza'sAlbum .
click that :)

btw shazadearie ,
i'm so lazy to take a pic of the poster .
heh , ANOTHER TIME AITE !

when you're lost in the dark ,
when you're out in the cold ,
when you're looking for something that resembles your soul ,
when the wind blows your house of cards ,
i'll be a home to your homeless heart ;

If you only knew , it'll be a dream come true .

Just got back home from pyramid . Didn't wanna come online , but wanted to check if he was online , so yeaaaaahh :)

i tink i'm going to bath first , till i blog bout today .

today was FUN :D :D
thanks shazadearie for the HannahMontanaMoviePoster .
hilarious tau .

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okaaay i'm back :)
but to know ,
i'll blog 2 hours later ,
UGLY BETTER & DESP HOUSEWIVES WAITING FOR ME :D
i promise i'll blog at 11.30 ,
if you can wait for me !

if you only knew my love for you was real ;

Tag by TeeRachel ;)

now that i'm really bored , oh well .

001. Real Name: LeeYokeShan .
002. Nickname(s): Shannie;Doodleshann;EggYoke
003. Age: 14 going on 15 .
004. Horoscope: Saggitarius .
005. Gender: Female .
006. Elementary: Omg , i forgotten .
007. Primary School: Sri Kuala Lumpur Primary School.
008. Secondary School: Sri Kuala Lumpur Secondary School.
009. College: Not yet .
010. Hair Color: Black .

011. Hair Length: Long .
012. Loud or Quiet: Loud i guess .
013. Sweats or Jeans : Sweats .
014. Phone or Camera: Phone .
015. Health Freak: Naaahh .
016. Drink or Smoke: Drink .
017. Do you have a crush on someone: Yeah .
018. Eat or Drink: Eat .
019. Piercings: NOT YEET !
020. Tattoos: Nope .

021. Social or Anti-Social: Social ?
022. Righty or lefty: Righty .
023. First piercing: None ):
024. First relationship: Primary school .
025. First Best Friend: A girl name TanShirley :)
026. First Award: omg , TELEMATCH :D MWAHAHHA .
027. First Kiss: Not yet .
028. First Pet: Tortoise !
029. First Big Vacation: Korea .
030. First Love at first sight: Have i ?

031. First Big Birthday: None . Not really big .
032. First Surgery : None .
033. First sport you joined: Telematch .MWHAHAHA
034. Orange or Apple juice: Orange juice .
035. Rock or Rap:Rap .
036. Country or Screamo: Country.
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet boys .
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Britney Spears .
039. Night or Day: Night .
040. Sun or Moon: Moon .

041. TV or Internet: Internet .
042. Playstation or XboX: Nintendo Wii .
043. Kiss or hug: Kiss .
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle !
045. Spider or bee: Spider laaahh .
046. Fall or spring: Spring .
047. Limewire or iTunes: iTunes .
048. Soccer or baseball: Soccer .
049. Eating: Nothing .
050. Drinking: Water .

051. Excitement level: Well , not that good , till he msn me :) *ahem carissa.
052. I'm about to: reply my msn .
053. Listening to: FromWhereI'mStanding - Schuyler Fisk .
054. Plan for today: Sleep .
055. Waiting for: Him to msn me ? * ahem ahem carissa .
056. Energy Level: Rather .. good , just bathed .
057. Thinking of someone: Absolutely .
058. Want kids : Yeah , FOUR ! 2 girls 2 boys .
059. Want to get married: Obviously .
060. When: When i've find the man for me .

061. How many kids do you want: 4 .
062. Any name on the mind: HAHAH maybe . :P
* 063 & 064 is missing ** missing ? *
065. Mellow future or wild: Wild .
066. Something you would never try: Cigar ?
067. Which is the better in the boy/girl you like(in the future): Huh ? o.o
068. Lips or Eyes: Lips .

069. Romantic or Funny: Romantic .
070. Shorter or Taller: Taller .

071. Protective or Caring?: Caring .
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Romantic .
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Arms .
074. Sensitive or Loud: Loud .
075. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationships .
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant:Trouble Maker .
077. Muscular or normal:Rather muscular .
078. Kissed a stranger: Don't think so .
079. Broken a bone: Naahh .
080. Lost glasses or contacts: Nope .

081. Ran away from home: How i wish i could .
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: NOOOHH .
083. Killed somebody: OMG , if i did , i would be in jail now ?
084. Broken some one's heart: Yeaahh ..
085. Had your heart broken: Of course .
086. Been arrested: Naaahh .
087. Cried when someone died: No no , i was laughing like a mad person when someone died , OBVIOUSLY I CRIED RIGHT -.-
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Guess so .
089. Do you believe in Yourself: Uhuh .
090. Miracles: Yeah .

* 091 is missing **another missing 1*
092. Heaven: Uhuh .
093. When do you want to die: When god sends me to hell .
094. Tooth Fairy: No -.-
095. Kiss on the first date: Naahh .
096. Angels: Heh , with wings ?
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: Practically , yeah .
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now: Naahh .
099. Do you believe in God: Uhuh .
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

-Shaza Hazwani
-Claire Cosset
-Aliya Syaqira
-VoonMayYin
-CarissaYuen
-Victoria Tan
-Carmen Lim
-Brandon Chew
-Redza
-Rizki .