And the worst part is,

before it gets any better, we're headed for a cliff.

I tried. I did try. I tried making things better. I wanted to make it happen, really. I wanted you so badly, till I was living in denial all the while. I just hate to admit, that I ain't good enough for you. I didn't want to face it. I never did. I've been telling myself, that things were going to work out, something was going to happen. But, i guess it's never going to be. Well, it's time. It's time for me to stop. It's time for me, to move on. There's no reason for me to stay, so i'm leaving. :)

I'm going to delete those few emo posts before. I'm trying to move on right now :D heh. Sheila, don't ask.

Anyway, pictures of ME to entertain you guys! HEH. Sorry, i don't really camwhore much. But, I was so bored in the morning, so I decided to edit those photos i took on Sunday :D :D


LALALA :D


In this picture, my left eye looks retarded ): Well, my left eye is smaller than my right eye, f.y.i


My facebook profile picture :)


my MSN display pic :D


NGEEHEHEHEHE. I love high-waisted skirts!


taken before BLG's Meet&Greet.


taken at Claire's house. last last friday. :)

WILL BE GOING SCHOOL TOMORROW! for cooking competition! WOOT :D
ps:// no, i'm not the chef. BrandonChew is -.-'

I'm not crazy,

I'm just a little unwell.

I'm ditching school tomorrow, cause i'm lazy to go to school. Okay, nope, that's not it. Is cause i can totally imagine myself, being a loner. Though I have Sheila&Shaza(not sure bout her :X), but then, still, i'll be a total loner right after school! Sitting alone, in the canteen, stoning. Yeap, that's more like it. Sigh. Was really planning to go, cause have to practice for Talentine, which is 4 days away, but suddenly, i'm really moodless to go :X

Anyway, NATALIEHAY! thanks for listening just now :) Really appreciate it! And thanks for your advices, haha, and what you said, were so damn true okay! :D :D

OH, not forgetting you, CARISSAYUEN, thanks for listening to my ups&downs. HAHA, and thanks for listening ookiee? kam'sa'hap'nida! :D :D

BTW. I WATCHED MICHAELJACKSON:THISISIT, just now, with ze' family! AND OHMYGOD. It was awesome, okay! I cried, at the very beginning. HAHA, yeah, PMS-ing. Anyway, it's the BOMB! Seriously, i could picture, if the concert was still going on, with him, being alive, the concert would be a blast. Sigh, really do miss MJ though. Those people who got to work with him, they're really lucky! Working with the KingOfPop! That's really cool, and he's a legend :) I also dont know how some people can find it boring ): BOOO.

9/10 :)

ER,
I'M HUNGRY *CRIES.

was wearing high-waisted skirt :)

HELLO. my name is yokeshan :)
and i'm hungry right now,
at this moment,
12.25a.m.
BYE.

i'm out.

How does it feel like being alone?

Don't you know, i'm waiting for your hold?

OHMYFUCKINGGOD. I'm fucking having sore throat :\ Frankly speaking, I HATE SORE THROAT, and i seldom have sore throat. But right now, i think i'm getting sick, that's why i'm having sore throat. DEEP SHIT.

picture was taken during PMR latih-tubi. *credits to aliya's camera.

Anyways, went to school today. The last time i went to school, was last Friday. Officially skipped school for 4 days. *wtf, why am i feeling proud?!

Oh, and I guess i wasn't used to waking up early anymore, i woke up late today. I thought i set my alarm on, but i guess I didn't. I end up waking up at 7.15a.m. I freaked out, at that moment, and thank god, my sister's college was at 9am. So i managed to go to school around 8 something :)

Did nothing much at school. Played Monopoly during the last period.

After that, waited for 45 minutes for Wi-Liam&Zaqir. Picked me up from school, then dropped Zaq at AC. Been long since I've seen Zaq ): Then, went to Pyramid with Wil. Got movie tickets, then to SakaeSushi. Met up with Swei;Farah. Nina came and joined us a little later after that. Had lunch together. Stone infront of TopShop since we were bored :X Went to MCD to chill.

Swei;Wil and I were talking about how guys go up to girls, to get their numbers. Then suddenly, this guy, came to our table, and talked to us.

*talking about where he's from and everything.
Him: Er, where's your college? Sunway? Taylors? Monash?
Me: What makes you think we're even college? HAHAH.
Him: Oh? You're not college? Secondary?
Me: Er, yeah.
Swei: I'm from MedicalSchool, and he(wil)'s from Taylors.
Him: Oh, you're not college?
Me: Me? HAHA, no no.
Him: Wow, you look so matured.
Me: HEARD THAT OR NOTT?! HAHAHA.
*he asked us to buy car stickers from him, for some donation thingy shit thing :X
Him: You can give this to your boyfriend.
Me: HAHA, i'm single.
Him: OH? Really? You so beautiful, how can you not have a boyfriend.

LOLNESS. I BET HE WAS JUST SAYING ALL THOSE, SO THAT WE'D BUY THE CAR STICKERS FROM HIM. YEAH, WE DID BUY. THERE GO OUR RM20 ): ): It was a CON OKAYYYY. I think. But STILL! EEEE. Can't believe people would actually dare to con, in PYRAMID. wtfff.

After that, went to cinema, wanted to get ticket for Swei, but tak jadi. Then went for movie.

JENNIFER'S BODY :)

i rate it,
7.5/10 :)

the show's not bad, but not THAT good either. I like a few lines from there! "We can play Mummy and Daddy" & " I go both ways" HAHAHAHA. :P

anyways, i'm done!

We're falling apart ;)

Currently blogging while lying down on my bed. I'm hungry ): wanna get
food but I'm so lazy to go downstairs. Sigh. Guess I'll just go to
sleep to stop my hunger :X

Gonna ditch school later. School will be a bore even if I do go ):

Haven't been blogging lately, cause I don't know what to write. I
always write half way but end up deleting the post. I'm thinking to
delete my blog and stop blogging for a mean time.

Sent from my iPod

AAR, rocked my socks :)

Came home from AAR like an hour ago. Thanks to Wi-Liam for fetching me! :D

Anyways, i'll get those pictures from Olivia's camera, cause i didn't bring one. But all i can say is, AAR was ze' bomb! And the fact that I was standing right infront of the stage, right in the middle, just made it better. :) :)

will update again, when i get those pictures!

No way to hide,

there's no way to run.

Currently blogging @ Voonmayyin's :) Sleeping over hers tonight! Clairecosset and her are currently playing nintendoWii, and i'm using the internet.

Today was fun! Went for gym @ TrueFitness, Jaya 33 with Nataliehay & Derrickng (the birthdayboy). Made Derrick to wait for an hour T_T Sorry doode! But we managed to made him back on mood later! Heh. Went on threadmill and so much more :) Then, chilled downstairs and have a talk about friends; family and all. Around 2.20 p.m, Derrick left, so Nataliehay and i planned to go for sauna, but that smartass girl forgotten to bring towel! HAHAHA, so yeah. Went to some Japanese restaurant to have lunch :D And we started to talk about guys. Hm, she understands me the best, and tells me what i shall do best! After that, went to sit @ TheCoffeeBean and started to talk about our problems. We both have the same problems actually. Heh. Then her driver sent me to Mayyin's house.

Watched UNBORN with Mayyin; Clairecosset& Philippe. Was sleeping during half of the movie. COULDN'T HELP IT :P Was too tired. Ate pizza for dinner. Tehee.

So, today i actually spent my time with my best buddies :) Love being around with them, cause i don't have to be someone. I just have to be MYSELF when i'm with them. THANKS BABES :D :D. Nataliehay, thank you so much! I owe you alot, for listening to me! :D

You are the only exception.

you are the only exception.

I've no idea why i'm feeling down again. I thought i could put it all aside, but sheila made me realized that there's no way that i can put this feeling away, that easily. There's just times, where i feel like slamming my keys, and just type " DOODE, I LIKE YOU. " and send it to you, period. But i'll start to think twice, about how's it going to affect our friendship, and how's it going to affect everyone else, not just you and me. Things might change, and it might get worse. Things that we will never know, might happened. It might be good, if you feel the same way as i do, but i'm sure it'll be pretty bad, if you don't. Sometimes is just good to just keep it to yourself, but i just can't take it anymore. I can't bear with this fucking feeling. I think i'll only feel better when i've finally find my guts out to tell you i like you.

Going to sleep now. Hope that i can meet Nataliehay in 8 hours, and also sleepover at Mayyin's!